Yes, I Can

This blog post isn't going to be about horses, although I have a lot to tell you guys on that. Right now I just want to get my thoughts out and my confidence overall up, and I feel posting this publicly will help. A lot has been going on, and in the forefront of my mind has been school. I've had to face the realization that many people my age don't want to face, and definitely don't want to admit. But the fact is, I don't have enough credits to graduate on time. That fact alone has sent me into right brain overdrive for the past...two weeks. As an innately Right Brained Extrovert, I've taken that fact pretty hard and beaten myself up mentally because of it. I've thought things that no one should think about themselves-I've thought of myself as a failure, considered myself stupid because I can't seem to get myself out of the B/C average, and have been feeling left behind simply because everyone else I grew up with seems to have graduated without me. I've considered giving up completely, because surely I've ruined my life, right?
But I've realized a lot of things tonight that have helped me come to terms with the fact. Number one-I'm not stupid. My strengths may not lie academically, but that does not make me stupid. I haven't failed yet, either. I can not fail unless I stop trying. And as for being left behind, it is MY life's journey and it shouldn't matter where other people are in theirs. I've realized that I haven't ruined my life, either. Just because I'll have to take an extra trimester in school does not mean the end of the world.
Some people would call this an excuse, but I don't. I was offered the opportunity of a lifetime at Heartland and I went for it. And then coming home and making a point to seize opportunity by the throat not only says that I'm not a failure, but says that I have one hell of a future ahead of me.
And the big one-realizing that yes, I will be successful in life. this is just a minor setback, and then yes, I will be chugging towards college.
So the theme for today's blog is 'Yes, I Can'.