Lately things haven't really been going well. Or rather, I haven't been able to look on the bright side of things. The things that have been sticking out to me are these-one of my closest friends moved away and she hasn't been contacting me regularly, and when she does contact me, it's very formal and distant. I'm sure many of you have experienced a similar situation. It doesn't feel all that great. My mother's been sick constantly-extremely sick and constantly wheezing. And more than that, I'd lost a lot of faith in my dreams. After all, how could I possibly afford to go to the fast track when I'm barely scraping by, month after month? So I started taking Chase out on trails-honestly more for me than for him. He's been telling me more and more often that we needed to get back to the arena and practice more freestyle so we can move on, get ready to be teachers. But I'd lost heart in it-every time I tried to save up, something would come up and I'd have to spend the money.
It's times like this where I really need to trust more in god and his angels, and my horse's undying faith in our partnership. Now may not be the time to focus on the money-although I've started to cut down on expenses to try to save up more. It should be more of a sidefocus, and it'll be figured out later. Now is the time to focus on passing our level three, and even more so, to realize I'm not alone in this-ever. I can do this. I am a good enough horse-woman to pass level 3 with my horse-more than good enough on the ground. And one day, one day soon, Chase and I will go to the fast-track, and we will become a good enough team to earn the title we strive for. And we will become inspiring enough to change hearts and open minds. :) Because if god is with us, who can be against us?
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